This Thing Called Life

     Watching someone change into someone they are not so quickly is really hard. Thinking back to times when my grandma would remember to call her cousin and sister or make a grocery list every Wednesday for my mother to pick up for her are all in the past. Dementia has taken over. My grandma has a whole entire new mindset. Why? Why did this disease choose someone so sweet, kind, and loving? Why can't there be medicine to save her memory and remember me forever? Visiting her in the nursing home and seeing the state she is in, only makes me think of every good memory I've had. I'll also never forget the day that changed the way we cared for my grandma for ever.      I was younger, maybe 15 or 16 years old. I was in the yard beside my Memaws house playing football with the neighborhood kids. Through all the yelling and shouting, I heard a smoke alarm so I told every one to shut up. I knew when I heard the alarm clearly, that it was my grandmas. I bolted over to her house an

     Last night, my mom informed me that it is very possible I'll be able to move into my grandmas house and take it over in October. I got a rush of excitement and nervousness at the same time. I've never lived on my own. I'm not the best cook, but I love baking. I'm clean and organized for the most part. I think what makes me most nervous is having to pay bills and making sure they are payed on time. The only bill I pay now is my phone bill and credit card. That's it. No rent, electricity, internet, cable, and so on. Leaving the nest will be a huge adventure for me. I have $98 saved up for things I need to buy. That's not a lot but it is better than nothing. I was hoping to have more time to save and plan renovations but it looks like I'll have to make due until I get the money.      I made a list of all current bills she pays with my mom since the only bill that I will add is internet. It comes close. I may need to get a part time second job to make sure