This Thing Called Life

     Today I ordered the textbook for my class from Amazon because my schools new policy is to have all books be Ebooks. I think this is ridiculous. I spent $50 of my OWN hard earned dollars to order it when I could of used that for food or pay on a bill. The school should really consider how people feel before they just decide to make all books electronic. We have to pay for the book regardless. I like having the book in my hand so I can highlight and park pages and look at things as many times as I want. Yes, you can highlight online textbooks and what not but it just isn't the same. I retain information better from an actual book. It took me HOURS to scroll on the iPad that my school issued to find the answers to my workbook last night. Today has all around been a shit day anyway. I feel like giving up because I have no motivation in this mod already. This class has only been in session for a week and a half and I'm already failing. I failed our first test on chap...

     Mondays suck. I have never liked them like most people. I always refer to them as "Manic Monday" because 99% of the time, they are. We started our new clinical rotation today and that really made me question if I want to continue this nursing school boot camp. We pretty much do everything a CNA does and I would know because I am one. I decided to go to nursing school to do more but it seems like anytime we have a rotation, I feel like I'm at work. We don't pass medications, do treatments, or anything accept bed baths, brief changes, and transfers. Aside from complaining about that, I also decided I am tired of this "full time student" struggle. I hate eating Ramen and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches most nights. I want to be able to buy real food. I want to buy the healthy foods I love like salad mix, fresh fruits, and vegetables. It sucks when you want to eat healthy food but can't afford it so you eat whatever is lurking in your cabinets or pan...

     When I decided that I wanted to become a nurse, I knew two things: One: It was not going to be cheap and Two: It was going to be hard at times, but well worth it once I was finished. I never realized it would come down to deciding what to spend my last couple of pennies on.      My first two years at community college I paid out of pocket for my classes because my pell grant I received from FAFSA only gave me about $300 each semester and that would only buy an hour and a half of class or a textbook. So I worked super hard to save enough money to take at least two classes each semester. It worked out well for me that way because I passed all of my classes with As knowing if I didn't, it was a waste of $2000.      Once I decided to take the fast track LPN program I'm in now, I knew I would have to continue working in order to keep my own place and pay my bills that never seem to end. Luckily my school offered day and eveni...