This Thing Called Life

     I don't know if it is because I failed my recent term of nursing school and have had to start over or if I'm just stressed and tired and over being broke or all of the above. I'm beginning to really contemplate if I even want to continue with nursing school. I feel like the more I try to get ahead and study for tests and do well on projects, it leads me to nowhere. I failed my last term and I was trying my hardest to pass. The instructors at my school have a lot to do with my feelings as well. Some of them want to actually teach you and help you to succeed, while other (like the one I have now for the second time) don't do anything but read off a power point and expect you to teach yourself. I do not learn like that.      Clinical is a huge waste of time for me because we are assigned to patients in these nursing homes that are total care. I already do that at work. I know how to change a brief, feed, and give a shower or bed bath. Let me do things I've never

     For the last two weeks I had picked up extra shifts at both of my jobs in hopes of making enough money to actually pay all of my bills due at the end of each month instead of playing the "which bill is more important to pay" game. Well those hopes were lost quickly because guess who is short $300? This girl.      I've been applying for jobs closer to home and ones that pay the same or even higher. Between both checks I received $378. My car note is $280. That leaves me with $98 to split up and put towards my credit card bill ($25 minimum), my school loan payment ($25 minimum), and $38 left to go towards my furniture payment or my phone bill which is $46 total. Somehow I still need to find $115 for my car insurance, $131 for cable and internet, and the remainder of my phone bill. So needless to say that every penny of this paycheck is going straight towards bills and I will have no gas money or grocery money.      Since I failed my last term and have to retake it, I

     Going from working two full time jobs and full time school at night to part time work and full time school is a major adjustment and I was not ready for what I have gotten myself into. Why did I stop doing both full time? I was very stressed, unhappy, and depressed. My grades were slipping and so was my attitude and motivation. So I took a leap of faith and decided to test out the "full time student" life. Let's just say that it is nothing like I hoped it would be.      I quit going to community college a while back because it seemed like a waste of my time and money. They were making me take pre-requisites before taking the actual pre-req I needed for nursing school. I found an LPN program near me and started this past January. It isn't hard but the work to make the grades can be exhausting. Before switching to a full time day student, I was working 7-3 then going to school in the evening 5:30-10:30 five days a week. I had no time for my family, boyfriend, or m